questions of lonely despair

God, please help me make sense of life.

what will i do after grad school? there are US govt jobs that seem interesting in public health, but part of me itches to fulfill the international pull, to be a "citizen of the world" again... where will i work? how will i pay back my debts? who will i be with? will i have community? will i just be a boring us person who settled for the repetitive grind due to debts and not thinking outside of the box? will i go to africa, latin america, russia, etc ? will i have a community? a life companion? will i be satisfied, will i have fun or use my gifts? will all of life be suffering and dissatisfaction? will my friends be geographically close by and create a community or will i be the only one left behind, bitter, disconnected, wishing we were closer so we could help each other? will my brother and i still be close? will we both be bitter? will our parents ever come to know You, God? will hope, faith and love be evident and alive in my life?

disclaimer: i realize that these questions may not be the most encouraging, and there is more to faith than despair and questions. life is full of joys and pain so perhaps someone will rejoice if they relate and know they are not alone.. or we can all reflect and laugh after it's all resolved. but this is where i was today and wanted to share.