Why do I feel so incapable of making any future decisions? I know that God is good, but I don't know what's a better path to take. I do not feel a pull in either direction, and I am afraid I don't know what's my interest and what's God's. And discernment aside, logically, one could justify taking either option. How will I know where to go?
In the Screwtape Letters, CS Lewis writes that God wants us to be concerned with what we do, whereas the devil wants us to be concerned with what will happen to us, producing anxiety and worry. In this situation, i think i really am trying to find what to do and how to serve Him best, but i am anxious about letting somebody down. what is one to do when they really don't know what direction to take?
I have thought back to what my roommate had said, that sometimes God gives us answers in bits and things may be revealed with time. That pushes me to strongly focus on patience and trusting that He WILL provide direction. But time is running out and I am being asked what I have decided..
Hmm.
PS on a side note, with what degree of importance should christians consider the dreams they have when they sleep? --anxiously confused.
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