child of God

i was thinking how this has been a great spring, a great lent/easter season, etc. a part of me is a bit nervous that future ones will never live up to as good as this one, with so many revelations and joy.

and then i thought about this concept of being a child of God. i remmember so recently, this past fall, being mad at God, bitter, and cynical. i was mad at Him, and in return He gave me knowledge, passion, joy, and growth. that's God's terms of justice and fairness. i am just His small child, throwing temper tantrums from time to time, but realizing that He loves me all along and no less. as time goes on i get over the tantrums and notice that all along He's been building up good gifts for me. i am a silly , immature, moody child, but He loves me so much and gives me so much.

most of these moments of clarity came about while driving.. huh. interesting. i have been feeling increasingly guilty about the environmental impact and whatnot.. yet it's been so good to have clarity and peaceful thoughts and revelations practically every day. i think i am seeing myself submit to Him much more and grow lots. perhaps biking can provide revelations, too.

gotta remember. God chooses the lowly things of this world to educate the higherups. He chooses the children and the unwise. and i am a child of His and He loves me so much! i am not worthy, but i am lowly, that is why by His grace, He uses me.

perhaps y'all can relate?